With No Apparent Beauty that man should him desire

So this Haloween was uniqe indeed! It fell on a sunday and so instead of trick or treating or partying it up, I was at church for not one, or two or even three, but five hours! And strangly everything that has been on my mind lately, every question I've had and everything I needed to hear, was discussed. Today left me with a new perspective of faith, trials, and all that Jesus Christs atonment can do for us.
Sometimes, when hard things happen, we start to feel bad for ourselves, we forget him, and we forget to be gratful for all that he did for us. Is it possible that, someone would be willing to suffer every pain and heart ache, and affliction that we could ever possibly imagine for us? And can his suffering really enable us to become more then we are, to become like he is? YES! Jesus Christ lived, he suffered so much pain, and lonliness and grief far beyond what I can even begin to comprehend, meanwhile praying for the people who were imposing this on him. he prooved that love is real!
we all struggle, we all go through things that seem to be impossible to move on from. But we have to becuse how would we ever hope to be like him if we didn't feel a little bit of what he felt? And how would we excersise faith in him? Faith that he has a plan for us and our lives, faith that he will help us and faith that these afflictions really are for just a small moment.
We knew it wasn't going to be easy, we knew that we would strluggle with family issues or physical pain, or fear or even feeling loved. But we looked up at our hevenley father and decided that we would do it, that we would do it one hundred million times if it meant returning to him, if it meant being like he is.
Im so grateful to have the gospel in my life, Im so glad that I know I can turn to the savior with anything, with no apparent beauty that man should him desire he IS the promised savior to purify with fire!

A Dance for stakes!

I have never particularly liked Haloween. I find scary movies and expensive haunted houses some what ridiculous and pointless, and going from house to house in the freezing cold, begging for candy when your a teenager, isn't exactly recreational for me. However, I have a good feeling about this year, because after one night of Haloween partying, I already have so much to blog about!
So most people think of MANDY ESTES and KAYLIE BARTHOLOLMEW as nice, quiet, well behaved, and completely normal girls, I have known for quite some time now that the opposite is true. But I think they showed their true, crazy colors at the stake dance when they showed up as not ghosts, not princesses, not even zombies but cows! COWS... I don't think it gets any more random then that! However they did not stay cows, no no because there were about five million costume changes throughout the evening from fairies, to sailors to nerds to anything else you could ever imagine! I wish you all could have seen the faces of some very surprised young men, when they were asked to dance by gorgous girls who just happen to have hooves:)
However, I did infact encounter some issues, MY PAST IS COMING BACK TO HAUNT ME!! In the past six months it seems as though everywhere I go I come into contact with one of my former loves... the stake dance was no different. I had a very intresting time talking to the main charector in my third grade journal, I particularly enjoyed his opinions on current friends of mine, and his theory's on how he and I know each other.....
Anyways as always, me and my friends party'd it up! Just as usual, we talked about everything! We talked about nothing! We invented some pretty tight dance moves if I do say so myslef and basically I love them with all of my heart, might, mind and strength!

Only me!

hey guys! Just because I know your all dying to know, here are 50 random facts about me!
1. I once broke my foot while watching Miss America.
2. I have really hot ankles!
3. Apparently, I like guys who sing like girls!
4. I LOVE to sing even though I sound like a dying cat when I do!
5.I tend to restate things I say: I do, I really do!
6. I only eat brown eminems just because I saw the guy on the wedding planner do that!
7. My favorite food is letus ( Weird, I know)
8. I asked five of my best friends if I was running for president of the US if they would vote for me, only one said yes! ( I love you Maddie!)
9. I have six sisters all younger then me! ( seven if you count Braden:)
10. This Haloween will be my fifth time being Belle!:)
11. I want to get engaged by the guy pointing at a particular sighn in St. George!:D
12. When my older brother and I were little we wrote songs about his love life!:)
13. One time my two little sisters got chased by a cow in our back yard.
14. I got scared of the kiddy haunted ride at Lagoon last summer!
15. I am a stalker.
16. My favorite colors are yellow and dark blue just because they give me an excuse to take out my frastration at life on my friends ( sorry guys:)
17. I tipped a kayak at girls camp and had to get rescued by a boy in my ward (yes he came to girls camp! CREEPER! jk:)
18. My all time favorite song is dont stop beleving, cheesy, I know.
19. Im basically obsessed with disney movies! Walt disney was a BRILLIANT man!
20. I have every song in High School musical 1 & 2 memorized
21. My bishop told me Hannah Montana is bad!
22. I am a professional dream analyzer!
23. Me and my best friend make popcorn like pioneers!
24. My favorite numbers are 74 and 4..dont ask why!
25. I have to do my mascara whilelaying down!
26. I think everything is Awkward!
27. Me and my cousin like to go to the mall and try on dresses and pretend were bridesmaids!
28. I am TERRIBLE at adgectives!
29. I never talked until fifth grade! ( seriously!)
30. basically, Im in love with Taylor Lautner!
31. I hate not having my nails done or at the very least painted!
32. I am learning how to fish!
33. I love to act ( that doesn't make me talented at it!)
34. I love sleep!
35. My theme song is Hello Beautiful ( for obvious reasons!) jk jk!
36. I accidently got a modeling agent over fall break:)
37. In seventh grade.. I chased the wrong bus!
38. I am a member of " the crew" who's arch nemesis is " The posse":D
39. Im obsessed with Nicholas Sparks!
40. I fell in love with a kid named jmmy just because he gave me wheaties!:)
41. Jimmy is fake.
42.I want to marry a guy with dark skin AND freckles!:)
43. My first impressions of people are almost always wrong!
44. I LOVE lehi more then words can describe!
45. Their is a secret room in my house!
46. One day I WILL be the president of the United States of America!:)
47. I love cheesy chick flicks!
48. I love rock climbing!
49. I'm never serious, so dont take anything I say personally!
50. this is the most important! I am a member of the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints!,I am a daughter of God and i'm so gratful that I know that!
Well that is probably more then you cared to know! I didnt know their were that many things about me! I promise, Im really not crazy!..well not completely anyway!:)

Hiding in the bushes!

So I basically have an amazing life!! Beyond Amazing! But I have one issue. Its a major, major issue! So my entire life has been documented: this has braught much enjoyment to me and others over the last couple of weeks..however I learned something about myself that I did not want to know and that is , just this small fact.. IM. A. STALKER.! A major, major stalker!! Why, oh why did I at age 8 feel the need to write about a certain young mans personal hair style choices? Why did I know about other peoples love lifes!! Why did I have a complete description of my future wedding with someone who didnt even know me from Adam? I dont know! Honestly, I dont!! Since making this discovery I began to realize the totally stalker things I do even still! I do not mean to do these things! Im just naturally a creeper! Ugh please tell me it is normal to talk about a guy friends muscles at 4:01 a.m, please tell me it is normal to notice the width of someones neck! Please tell me its normal to just happen to know where an aquantance who lives no where close to me and is not neccasarily a friend lives! PLEASE tell me it is normal to know exctly where and what time of the week your neighbor goes grocery shopping! I would love to hear that these things are ok..but, I know they are not ok! They are creepy and you should all be closing your blinds just in case!!

Only Us!

So , talk to any person on the planet and I'd bet my right hand they will tell you that they have the greatest friends.!.....well I hate to break it to the 99.99999999% of you who aren't me, but FALSE I totally have the greatest friends!! We pretty much random things and we can be super awkward but that is what makes us so amazing!
Well today in flex, a couple of us decided to make a list of fake attractive guys and leave it somewhere so that other people would find it and be very confused.:) Upon entering fourth period I got approached by a person who is unfortanant enough to be in our same grade and deal with us every day! " Kylie", she said, " Do you have a yellow highlighter?" " " No, why" " o.k which one of your friends has a yellow highlighter?", " What are you talking about?" (and then their was this serious dramatic pause as she pulls outTHE LIST! )" I found this, its written in yellow highlighter and Right when I saw it I knew it had to be one of your friends.... Only you guys would do that!".
Sad as it is, she was right only we would do that!!:)