You Are The Music in Me:)

Today I was watching some weird show on netflix and do you know what song it played at the end? Dark Blue by Jacks Manuquin ( I dont think I spelled rite!:) It made my day  first of all because I didnt think anyone else knew that song! but mostly because it reminded me of one of my dearest friends! :) Im really glad that there is music in my life and that when I hear a song, I think of a memory or a person. But just so everyone knows I sing when Im happy! And Im glad all the awesome people in my life have kept me singing:)

Things that make my life!

Sometimes things just make me happy! Plain and simple, I dont know why but they just do!
--I love reading Nicholas Sparks!
   - I love listening to old music specifically " You make My dreams come true" because its a happy song!
- I love weddings! I do watch wedding shows more then is normal!
    - I love wearing high heels, they make me feel official!
- I love making lists!
  - I love little kids movies
- I love pink roses! They are just so pretty!
      - I love having a stash of chocolate coverd marshmellows on  a stick in my pantry!
- I love dancing with my lil sistas and spinning around for hours!
    - I love the color yellow!
-and most of all I love people who watch me do these quirky things and still love me!:)

Life is Good.

So I like to joke about my life being a soap opera or my life being a sitcom...thats because my life hasnt exactly been ideal or normal....then again I guess very few peoples lives really are. Sometimes I'm really frausterated with myself because I can see in my minds eye, exactly who I want to be..but then past events and certain people in my life make me put this wall up, because I'm scared, because Im hurt and because I hate to put myself in a vulnerable position. This last weekend I have been reflecting a little bit on Paul Ridge, suffieced to say, his life was defenatly not ideal or normal either, he was technically the second husband of my great aunt...but to me he was always grandpa. He hadnt exactly had an easy life, he had terrible hearing after coming back from the military, he had alot of personal trials in his life, but you would never know that!The most common phrase he said was, " life is good", and his life was, because he chose for it to be, no matter what was going on with him.  I dont have a single memory of him when he wasnt wearing a smile. I dont have a single memory with him that isnt good, you couldnt be around him and not smile, he carried a spirit of hope and optimism with him that is completely unfathemable. I think it would do me alot of good to be more like him, to smile more, to find joy in small things and to find sweet silver linings in all that happend. I hope that I can overcome the trials I face, with as much grace and hope as him, and I hope that when I leave this earth, people will remember me smiling and loving, the same way I remember my grandpa, and like him, I hope to find good in all people I encounter...no matter what they may do to me. Someday I hope that someone can blog about me, and that I can be remembered by even step-great-nieces as an example and a courages strong person.

A magic thing.

So Ive always kind of had a fasination with music...k its not a fasination, its more like a complete and total obsession! I will listen to basically anything and be in heaven!
   One thing I recently discovered was just how much I love music...listening to it, and playing it...although I dont know if it could be considered playing just yert:) I have spent the last three hours doing absolutly nothing but attempting cannon by Pachebel ( Im pretty sure thats spelled wrong), on the piano! The piano is a wonderful thing! Your not compared to anyone else, its all you just your talent and your emotions all musically strung together into the songs your playing! When Im sad....I play piano...when Im overjoyed...I play piano..when Im angry...I punch a pillow! just kidding I still play piano!:) And it probably helps that my teacher is awesome...yeah she gives me cookies...I know! Your jealous! and even though I wouldnt consider myself even kind of good at it, Im so glad for the huge, expensive,complicated waste of space...some people call it piano....I call it my therapist, but whatever you call it, its magical, magical I tell you!