just smile

So this last little while I havn't exactly been myself.....I think I just woke up one day and decided I hated life....not because I didn't have the greatest siblings ever....not because my friends became less amazing...not even because I hadn't watched enough Disney movies...just because I wanted to be sad, I wanted to shut down and not work to find joy in my life...I wanted to give in to all the negetive thoughts and feelings and I didn't want to beleve that any of the struggles I was facing would ever come to an end. I did that, not because I liked the way I was feeling, but simply because it was to hard to change it. My life seems to be throwing curve balls at me from every direction. I dont know what will last and what Im going to have to lose soon, I cant even begin to predict what my worlds going to be like in 6 months...it seems that when your name is Kylie Pat Smith, things dont work out like you think they will....ever! And you have to let go and say goodbye more then you want to. I think that was my biggest struggle, I can't control anything..I have no idea if any of my friendships or relationships are going to last and I can't even tell you what high school Ill be at soon...no stability rite? thats what I thought but I couldn't have been more wrong! because the scriptures say, " I the lord God am the same, yesterday, today and forever" the one thing in life that will never change or let you down is the savior, no matter what you do he loves you the same--even if I am imperfect he loves me perfectly--even if I am incomplete he loves me completely, and even if i have to go through trials, he wont forget me! He is still there...so Im just going to have faith and TRUST HIM. He's got this! And even if I have to fake it til I make it Im going to keep smiling and finding the little things that make my life worth living to the fullest!