Sometimes.....

Sometimes, it's 11 and I can't sleep, and all I want to do is text Noah, but I know that if I do, we will end up in some ridiculously long hilarious conversation that neither of us will want to end, and we will be up until 3 a.m talking about pick up lines and bromances. And I will think it's wonderful, until 6:00 when I'm forced to wake up and drag myself to shool on less than three hours of sleep... This must be what it's like to work in a bubble wrap factory! " must not pop the bubbles, must not pop the bubbles" except for me, it's " must not text Noah... Must not text Noah!" :).... But if he were to text me first, that would be fine! That
would be fine indeed:)

sixteen candles:)

Yesterday, one of the darling little beehives in my ward said to me, " I'm so jealous of you! You get to go on dates, drive a car...go shopping, and you have a LOCKER!!!!...I can't wait to be sixteen!"

      well, I couldn't help but smile at this lovely sentiment because I totes remember being that little beehive, envying Angel and Noel every day of my life, because they went to this glamourous place called Lehi High School...and shopped for prom dresses and had cars! ...Now here I am, in those same shoes, and Miss Kyara, just btw, it happens a lot faster than you think! Rite now, on my last eve of my fifteenth year, all I can think of is how many amazing things will lie in store for me!:) here are sixteen things I hope to do in my sixteenth year!:

1. go on another date.
2. get my license
3. get a job
4. donate blood. 
5. join the big brothers, big sisters organization
6. learn to sew
7. get a car of sorts
8. Go to EFY
9. Be A YCL at girly camp
10. Finish the book of mormon...and beat the young men while Im at it:)
11. Hang out with Noah and Bryce as much as possible!
12. Make a snow man with Kay!
13. Do something wonderful for all of my friends' sweet sixteens
14. Visit Ceri Curtis!
15. Watch Kaden graduate high school and attempt to not bawl like a baby!
16. Actually do something for my seventeenth birthday!:)

Its going to be a crazy--amazing year! Im so excited for it!!:)

Things worth missing:):)

 You know those moments, when you feel like you need to be on a commercial for Kodak because everything is just going so incredibly perfect! Thats definatly what my life felt like last weekend! Saterday was kind of a big deal:), actually that statement was false; Saterday was DEFINATLY a HUGE deal! It was my very first experience  " hanging out with friends in even numbers." At the end of the night I was able to conclude two things! A) that you probably shouldn't hang out with boys at Lowes Extreme Air Sports unless you are EXTREMELY cooridnated! (Really, you probably have to be Mia Ham or Kaylie Bartholomew to not make a fool out of yourself.) but secondly, and much more importantly,  I realized that seeing EFY friends can make you really sad happy!  happy for obvious reasons, but sad because you know that you may go weeks...or even months without seeing them again!!! and the whole EFY morning process begins again! When you miss something THIS much, so long after it has happened, consider yourself one of the luckiest people on planet earth, because you know for a fact that you  have had some really wonderful things in life!

Don't cry because its over-- smile because it happend!:) thanks for an amazing night Noah and Bryce:)

All the colors are SOOOO beautiful....:)

Ok, I know this video is unbelievably long, but it's soooo worth watching:)

It's only life.....

So here's the deal: I'm in high school. That means that my life is super carefree and fun and happy most of the time! But it also means that my little mind magnifies anything and everything and little things, become big things to me. And occasionally that's a problem. Sometimes, people change. Sometimes they grow apart, and sometimes it's enough to break your heart (yes that definatly did rhyme:) but in all honesty, this is just high school...most of these friendships are temporary...and maybe that's ok! Some friends are in your life for a reason, but alot of them are Only in it for a season, you cant force old friendships to come back, and you can't expect people to Change. It doesn't mean that the people I once called my best friends aren't still amazing, or that I still wouldn't do anything for any of them...it just means it's time for me to really let go and to take steps forward. The past is behind me, so I'll learn from it, the future is ahead Of me, so I'll prepare for it, but my life is now.... So I'll live it! I'll live it completly and to the fullest and with no regrets and even in my saddest moments I'll try to remember that it's only life... And even more than that; it's only high school!